Treasured Tuesday was a bust :(
This is typical for me, which I find depressing. I even had the day off, sort of.
I spent my morning taking Roman to chuck e cheese- making his last full week of summer kick ass. I spent the middle of the day doing housework, afternoon was a killer shoot with Wade Lee-but it was shot for the magazine and my evening lounging on the couch with Dave because I feel like I don't make enough effort to spend time with him. Most evenings I'm at my computer editing-which does not a marriage make.
I wanted to go to the tattoo parlor and get an estimate on the back piece I want-it's pretty big. I wanted to find a sports bra that didn't make my boobs feel like they were being bound-I've had the same one since my senior year of high school- yeah I know you're doing the math.
I easily put myself last-which everyone tells me I have to stop doing-but I'm not big on getting my nails done (don't think I've done that since my wedding) and setting aside an hour for myself seems like a perfectly good waste of an hour that I could be tending to something else. I'm terrible at making myself a priority, that just happens as we become adults with multiple responsibilities. I hope this is something that I don't teach Roman.
But for what its worth, I'm ordering the sports bra online since I'm not driving across town for it, I'm hoping to have the tattoo consult next week and maybe next Tuesday I can make an appointment for the salon to get some of these gray hairs covered.
My situation may not be like yours but I learned a life lesson right after my divorce from someone with bi-polar who let it run wild while being a new mom. *I did not know who I was.* I had put myself last for so long that I didn't know what music I liked, food I liked, I never saw movies, I didn’t travel, I didn’t have hobbies, etc. Dating was awkward because when asked about myself or my preferences...I didn't have an answer. I realized then that anything we have going on in our lives can be taken away or changed in an instant but I was always going to be stuck with me and who I was. I wanted to add to who I am with people/activities in my life, not the other way around. I also found out that if I took breaks I was a better mother, significant other, friend, etc because my fuse wasn’t so short due to my exhaustion. I learned life is precious and short so I wanted to make enjoyable memories.
ReplyDeleteI equate it to this: When a flight is about to take off the attendant tells you that if there is an emergency and the air bags drop you need to put yours on first before you help ANYONE else. - And what’s the reason for this? You are no good to anyone else and can’t help if you don’t take care of yourself first. By doing so it allows you the ability to help and be there for others.
And as a fellow working mommy I have to constantly remind myself that I don’t live on TV or in a movie…I can’t do it all. I’m human, not superwoman. I’d rather take it easy and possibly ace the few things I am doing while feeling content than fumble and stress over a never ending array of “shoulds”. :)